Management Placement Doubt vs Confidence

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Hi all!

So I’m over half way through my management placement now – 3 weeks left actually, wow! When did time start going so fast?! I think it’s because I’m enjoying every minute of my placement. It’s so refreshing waking up and being excited to go to placement rather than that feel of dread that I used to feel when on the wards (not to put anyone down, but I’m just not a ward nurse, never have been, sorry all). This is a feeling I’ve had before on my GP placement. I did some blog posts on this previously, please feel free to take a look.

So, back to this placement, I had my midway interview last week which went really well! I had some lovely feedback from my mentor at how well I was doing. It’s lovely to hear what the team and patients think of me 🙂 especially as I was starting to doubt my own abilities. This is what happens though, we all go through periods where we think am I good enough? Can I be this nurse?’ And then we will have a day, that goes really well, and tells us ‘yes I CAN!’

At the start of this placement, I had so much self doubt. I saw these incredible nurses around me, how knowledgeable they were, how much they did for their patients, how they just knew how to treat certain wounds without even checking! It made me feel so incompetent and wonder how I would cope going out there into the newly qualified world alone?! However, as I said, I’m now 3 weeks away from finishing and I feel different. There are times when I still question myself, but all in all I feel much more confident than I did at the beginning of this placement. I’m seeing wounds and now being able to use my own judgement and following evidence based practice to dress each one. I’m looking at deteriorating patients and knowing what to do and when to do it. I’m showing other nurses how to manage certain patients that they haven’t seen before but I have with other nurses (it’s a great feeling to be able to have this positive input.) It’s lovely to look back at how I was at the start of this and how much I’ve grown. And I know, even after I qualify and start my newly qualified nurse (NQN) position I will still be learning. Every day is a learning day in nursing, no one knows it all, and I’ll constantly be training and keeping up to date with everything.

Nursing is lifelong learning.

As students / NQN we must remember to be kind to ourselves and stop putting so much pressure on ourselves. Nursing is tough at times and we don’t need to add this unnecessary pressure. So my advice to everyone out there (including myself), before judging yourself and criticising yourself, look back at how far you’ve come. Remind yourself you can’t know it all, and ask ‘is this challenging or is it just unfamiliar to me?’ Like everything in this life, if we have not done it or if we have not seen it before – we won’t know it. The more practice we get, the more we research and the more we do things, the easier it becomes and confidence grows.

So for the next 3 weeks, I’m going to embrace them. Learn as much as I can, make the most of every single opportunity because I know I won’t be in this privileged position again.

Good luck to all my cohort 01/17 at Birmingham City University for these final weeks. We’ve got this!

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34 years old and finally achieving my dream of becoming a nurse.

2 Comments

  • Mandy Whitworth November 4, 2019 at 5:37 pm Reply

    Hi Claire, I have followed your nursing journey and want to say thank you. You really are an inspiration. I am nearly half way through 2nd year at Wolverhampton, and have moments when I think I cant do this. When I fee like this I watch one your you tube vlogs.Well done and hope you enjoy your last 3 weeks. Will you be vlogging your journey when qualified ? xx

    • DiaryOfTheStudentNurse November 4, 2019 at 11:17 pm Reply

      Hi Mandy!
      Aw thank you so so much! That’s so kind of you to say. You CAN definitely do this 🌟 keep that self belief inside of you. Look at how far you’ve come and how much you’ve grown since starting uni 🙂 that’s what keeps me going.
      I will be vlogging for as long as I physically can haha. It will be nice to show the transition to NQN I think 🙂 xx

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